After the last couple of weeks hiatus (though I did go for a little walk), here I am back with a new blog about the changes taking place in my life.
This week I finally started my new job. To recap on what this is, after some false starts and random applications, I decided what I wanted was:
- a job that I could do well without re-training, but that wouldn’t be deadly dull
- for an organisation doing good work in the local community
- something low-stress and less intense than my previous job
- A job which didn’t pay loads, but covered my bills, with a little bit every month left over for hobbies
- A part-time post, which I could leave on time every day- to leave space for my other goals. (That’s the important bit we’ll come back to!)
Having worked my first week at the new job, I’m feeling encouraged that I’ve found the right thing. The workplace seems friendly and not obviously a toxic workplace or sick system (see Issendai’s interesting blog post on sick systems which has rang true for me several times, over my years in non-profits!). I’m also really moved and motivated by the results I see coming in from the colleagues working on the ground. They are doing good work, with people who really need it.
So no major red flags, and I can turn my attention to what’s next.
Why don’t I have a mission yet?
What I’ve realised now: I’ve completely re-calibrated my life to have more space for my other goals. This is good!
The tiny snag is, I don’t …actually… totally know what all those goals are yet.
Specifically, I don’t know what I should be doing with my life. I don’t even have a clear idea of how to identify and clarify my mission- as opposed to finding a job or establishing a career. (Hat tip to my friend Emma who put me onto this concept- check out her awesome blog.)
When you start rethinking your relationship with work, and reading about approaches to progressing in your career, you come across a lot of people telling you ‘how to achieve your goals’ or ‘how to focus on your passion’. But what if you don’t know what that passion is? Where do you even start? This has struck me lately as a bit of a surprise. I thought I was pretty far ahead with this life change stuff. Actually, I’m only just rounding the first bend of a track that’s scaling a huge mountain, and I’m not entirely sure I’m trained for it.